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It's not long after midnight here, but I wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas. I'm sitting here listening to Christmas music and waiting for kids to fall asleep, and figured it would be a good time.

It's been a good year for me. After all of the problems last year what with my car accident, Cult's problems, and Mikel's injury, this year certainly did improve immensely. Best of all, we'll be celebrating Madison's first Christmas, and that's always very special. You only get one first Christmas, after all. The baby might not know or understand what's going on, but it's sure great for the rest of us. Right Heather and Matt?

Looking around at all the people who invade at this time, I can't help but think just how blessed I really am. I mean, it's been a few years now that I've had the mass invasion, and it makes me feel really good to know that I have so many great people who think enough of me to want to spend Christmas with me. I really can't say how great it is to hear "mom" from so many mouths directed at me. It does make me feel so warm inside. I can only hope that I've hlped make them feel that warm at least on occasion, because that's kind of their gift to me. They may not look at it that way, but I sure do.

Santa comes tonight. Yeah, I believe. I've never really stopped, even after 39 years. I hope I always believe, but I don't see it stopping. I don't see why I should. Hey, I must avoid Banality at all costs, right?

What I tend to hear a lot of this time of year has to do with how Christmas has become just a big commercial mess that's a big production and that people get turned off of it because of that. You know, that's really sad, in my opinion. Christmas is what you make it. If you don't want it to be that way with you and yours, don't make it that way. We all have the right to skip past what's fashionable and popular and do our own thing. I may not be so much into the religious aspect of it, but I certainly respect those who do. After all, my mom is quite religious and finds that part of it very important, and I respect that. Christmas to me goes beyond all of that. It's the Christmas spirit inside that's important in my eyes, and it doesn't really matter how one comes by that. Too many people forget that they have the freedom to celebrate how they want and just buy into the whole commercial deal. That's too bad, because they're missing out. I was glad to see tonight that Jason, while excited about the presents, also said that he was glad because he had his family, too. That was one of the big important things to him. He seems almost more excited about seeing how people like what he got them than seeing what he got himself. I'm really glad that even at 9 years old he can see what's really important. Of course, tomorrow he'll have fun just opening the bajillion packages from the bajillion people here.

Cult will be having another Christmas with us, which is definitely something to be thankful for. A bunch of his friends made it up yesterday, and there's a very good chance that more will be arriving tomorrow. This was iffy for awhile, but a dam seems to have broken that will allow them to show up. I can't express how glad I am about that.

So yeah. I think that's the end of my little diatribe. I could go on and on, but I'm sure nobody wants that. I am going to end with the lyrics to a song that I love that expresses how I feel, though. It's by a country band, sorry. ::grins::

I Still Believe in You )
aerdran: (Madison)
I had to write a post with one of the new icons Kelly made me. Isn't she cool!? If only I had a paid account again and could have lots of icons. I'll have to work on that.

Today I went to the doctor for a follow-up examination, though I didn't get to see him since he ended up being in surgery. So I answered a couple questions from his nurse Lisa, who really is just cool, and got to leave. My mom had driven here to take me since those here who drive and could do it go to work or school that time of day or have other things to do. It also gives an excuse for my mom to come up, which is cool. She lives an hour and a half away, so I don't get to see her often enough.

We ended up going to my Aunt Emma's after the doctor, which was nice since I see her even less, even though she lives right in town. It's amazing how you can lose touch with those who don't live very far away at all. It was also today that I saw my younger brother Tim for the first time in years. He went there to pick up Christmas presents from my mom. It was, to say the least, weird. I would never have recognized him if I'd seen him walking down the street. It was nice actually seeing him again, although our relationship has been rocky for these past years. Since my sister and I had our falling out, he kind of ended up leaning her way while Evan stood up for me. Tim seems to have mellowed over the years. He actually e-mails me on occasion with those silly things that get forwarded all over the place. At least it's some communication. He was even the one who took the first step since I had no way of contacting him at all. I likely wouldn't have anyway, because when I'd done that in the past, the only way that things would be mended was if I would take complete responsibility for whatever fracture happened to have taken place. I wasn't going to do that anymore.

But yeah. Hopefully things will continue to get better there. Tim has some things that Evan wants him to answer for as well, since Tim doesn't have the best histofy of treating our mom right. He does better now, but he still has times when he's downright nasty to her. Evan is very protective of mom, and doesn't forgive wrongs done to her very easily. But it would be nice if we could get a better relationship going between the three of us. Tim hardly knows his nieces and nephew, after all. He saw Evan's daughters, Bridget and Kayla, a few times when they were really young, and the same goes for Allyn. However, he's never met Jason or Madison, though I've sent a couple pictures. We'll see what happens, though.

I do know that things aren't likely to ever improve with my sister Gloria. She's far worse than Tim when it comes to treating people right. She's very self-absorbed, and can be just downright nasty. It's too bad, really. She sabotages relationships herself just by her overall attitude. I won't have my kids subjected to it, and I refuse to put up with her shit attitude against me anymore. If she wants to mend anything, she can bloody well make the first step. I doubt that will ever happen, but we'll see.

Anyway, I have to go. Allyn has a Christmas concert at her school, and we must go to hear her sing. I love Christmas concerts.

Thanks again, Kelly. You do rule!

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